He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit of the Lord says to the churches. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.

Revelation 2:7

18th July 2011

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It’s been a long time….

I don’t know where to start…. I was thinking about writing a book, however my thoughts are too fragmented.  In the past 7 months I have endured an overwhelming amount of stress, my friend suggested on several occasions that I blog about it. I don’t think people really care what I have dealt with or have to say.  It is however a healthy outlet for my personal expression.  I don’t do facebook so you won’t see post from me every 5 seconds.  I am concerned about what to write because I will expose parts of myself that I keep hidden. 

I am 35 years old and have 2 daughters. I am divorced. I had a hysterectomy 5 weeks ago. I now deal with feelings of inadequacy because I will never be able to give birth to a child again. I am thankful for my girls they mean the world to me, however I will never know the join of feeling a life grow within me again.

I have several other health issues that I don’t want to go into now.

I am tired of losing the people that I love to drugs and jail!

I am standing on God’s grace and mercy to get me through this difficult time. I have to remain strong and rooted in the word of God.

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